
8:45 am by emilyaugust
Taking a break this week to puppy-sit for some family members who are off skiing, and have a change of scenery. I’m staying in my old neighborhood in Hoboken, which means that I might have a chance to see some good friends from a previous job. Regardless, I’m looking at it as a sort of retreat: I’ve packed only clothes, my camera equipment, toiletries, a notebook, and a few books lent to me by my roommate about processes of writing and other artistic sentiments. I’m still working, though I wish I could have a Spring Break and travel home to be with my family! Strangely, I also have this weird back injury from sleeping on a broken bed frame. I am getting old, I suppose.
I turned off my Half.com store, and put up a vacation message at ETSY, so that I can revel in my calm state. The condo where I am staying has a gym facility, but I don’t know if my back injury would really allow me much exercise.
Meanwhile, I am totally distracted these days, but that’s life. Thinking a lot about the prospects of grad school, and tuition reimbursement offered through my new employer. Its a year off, but I am doing my research to head into the Next Big Thing with more confidence and planning than when I entered college.
I ordered myself a used copy of last year’s Poet’s Market, and have finished reading Letters to a Young Poet from Allison. (Well, you know, from Rilke.)
Now I have a dilemma to work out about my true passions:
“Would I die if I could not write?” Absolutely. Yes yes yes.
“And what about photography?” I would die nearly as quickly, yes.
I have even resorted to emailing my mother, something about, “Do you think I am a better writer or a better photographer?” She answered me, saying pretty much both. “I even will venture to say that you have talents you don’t even know you have yet…” Did I mention I have the most amazing mother? Because I do. She makes me feel okay, even if I am being selfish and introspective whenever we speak.
And perhaps I will put the question to you, dear reader. I suppose I need to develop my writing in a public way a little more clearly for you to answer this fairly. A thought I’ve had is to develop www.gogodistro.com as a portfolio project. I think Allison can help, because she has the digital skills and the same creative sentiments as I. Like I have said over and over, lately, stay tuned.